Saturday, July 28, 2012

Paths and Plans

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
- Proverbs 3:5-6

I have been putting off this blog update for a couple of reasons. One, I didn’t want to spill the beans about a certain little bean too soon. Two, I have been SO lazy this summer! I normally am one who likes to stay busy to the point of overloading myself, but lately I have wanted nothing more than to sit on the couch, eat Jello, and watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer… So lazy in fact, that after planning to announce our big news through this blog first, I opted for the much less work of simply posting a picture on Facebook.

So, in case you haven’t heard already… Jeff and I are pregnant!! Well, just I am pregnant, but you get the point. Our little Barros bean is going on 16 weeks this week and we are so excited and surprised and elated and pretty much unprepared! Finding this out and sharing the news was so much fun. So the story goes… Jeff was gone for the month of June on a short Air Force tour (he had a great time and was recognized by some important Commander dude, by the way… you should ask him about it sometime!). He left Memorial Day weekend on that Saturday, so Friday night we went out to a new Brazilian steakhouse in Colorado Springs and it was delicious! So delicious, in fact, that we stuffed our faces. I took Jeff to the airport on Saturday and by Sunday morning I was still feeling overstuffed and kind of nauseated. I thought it was just my big meal, but my “monthly bill” was running late and I had an extra HPT under the sink, so I thought I’d try it out. I was used to being disappointed to I wasn’t expecting much and continued to get ready for work that morning. When I looked at it again and saw that extra line, my first thought was, ‘No way! This must be a joke.’ So… on my way home from work that day. I bought four more pee sticks. I used two more that day and two more the next day, Monday, to be sure. Sure enough, they were all positive. I wanted to try and go visit Jeff to tell him in person, but was only able to hold it in for two days before I told Jeff over Skype! I sent him a text message with a picture of a positive test while he was sitting there and his initial response was, "Whaaaaat..." Haha, I think he was as speechless as I was. After talking about the possible due date and everything, his next thought was my favorite... The baby is due in January and his thought was, "We aren't going to get anything for Christmas!" Oh the worries of a new father...

Baby Barros @ 10 weeks


If you have read our blog before, many of you may also know that we are in the process of adopting from Ethiopia! In fact, we were just about to submit all our stacks of paperwork and legal documents to our agency and the Ethiopian government when I had a weird feeling and decided to pee on five sticks only to find out that our family (and my belly) would be growing sooner than we anticipated. We are still set on adopting and have had long discussions with our adoption agency. Right now, the waiting list for Ethiopia is TWO years! We are asking to still be put on that waiting list, but we are still waiting to hear back from the agency’s “upper management” to find out if this will be possible or not. Please pray that we hear good news soon! :)

I heard a saying once that makes even more sense to me now than when I first heard it: "If you want to make God laugh, make plans." Jeff and I had planned to have children sooner, but it just didn’t work out that way. We have both always wanted to adopt, but we thought it would be something we would venture into later in our life. When our plans weren’t working out the way we had hoped, we thought, ‘well maybe the plan is for us to adopt sooner than we had originally planned.’ You can try and plan to have kids at a certain time, or plan to have a certain degree before you reach a specific age, or plan to get married (or not get married) by a certain date. You can even “plan” to have all of your parents alive and present when your first child comes into this world so that they have a chance to meet ALL their grandparents. As much as I hate to admit it, because I’m a planner myself, life doesn’t work out that way.

Baby Barros @ 14 weeks
Since our paths were joined four years ago, this new conjoined path we are on has seen its ups and its down. We've seen some beautiful scenery and we've seen some not so great scenes. I can't believe it has already been four years, but I am so excited to see where else this path takes us. There will be more wonderful and breathtaking moments (January, maybe?) and there will be some sad and hard times, but we are so excited to be on this path together and to see what adventures it leads us to next. Thank you Lord that you are on that path with us and that you already know where it leads to.

For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother's womb.
I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully
and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there were not one of them.
- Psalm 139:13-16